Just got my first VA check of the school year. As some of you know, my VA check helps me pay for school; I get it because my father was a disabled veteran, and, he's dead. It's nothing but blood money. And it pays my rent and lets me and Justin eat for a month, but I hate it. The idea of it makes me sick to my stomach. I love buying completely random shit with it because the less I have of it the better I feel.
Somehow that seems wrong. I should be saving any excess money I have for the future. But I dont like it.
It barely cuts even anyway with rent and bills, but, somehow, the idea of living comfortably because my father died just doesnt sit well with me.