I found the wires to my Sega Dreamcast. I spent four hours playing Sonic Adventure 2 last night. And today, I found Warcraft 2, and with my frustration at my computer's inability to install the old warcraft 3, I played that. For um... almost 7 hours.
Fuck off. I can play lame ass video games all I damn well please.
I also cleaned my room last night. I cleaned out my closet. I can see the floor. Its a damn miracle. I shoved about 90 really shitty paperback books into the basement. Threw out so many old drawings. Old notes from high school. Somehow, I still cant bring myself to throw away that box full of notes from junior high that Amber wrote me. Can't read them, either. Cant throw away old holiday cards from my parents. I'm really weird sometimes. What makes me save one thing over another?
I've pretty much abandoned my cell phone. I cant bring myself to answer calls that I'm actualy there to receive, and the peice of shit doesnt give me my voice mail anyway. Technology, why have you forsaken me??!! I thought we were friends, you ass load of wires and metal bits.
Andrew from Rite Aid sent me an email of pictures of his new kitten. I havent talked to him in... months. I havent had an actual conversation with him in over a year. But the kid got a kitten, and remembered how much I love kittens. I wish I could remember little things about people I dont talk to anymore. Sometimes I miss him.
Then I remember the starwars talks and the fact that he had no social skills and I laugh a little.
God damn am I a bitch.
There it is again. Why do I miss some people over others?
I just feel bitter.
Ya know what. It would've been nice if someone had said, <i> Hey, Dani, are you handling things okay? </i>... It's just hard as hell pretending that nothing happened. Acting like i'm a-fucking-okay. If I'm pretending I'm okay, it would be nice if someone could at least pretend they care.
I'm on vacation which means I made it through another semester. I deserve a fucking pat on the back, at least.
Hell, I deserve a cake.
And a cherry on top.
Wait.Sometimes I miss her more then you would ever understand.